D for Disappointed

Like I always tell my friends, I always have a motive in doing things for my boyfriend. Things like getting things he likes, surprises him with surprise events which I guess no other girlfriends would do. I've done so many little things in hoping he would do the same to me as well.

I have always hinted him that I like this and I like that or I want to go somewhere, but he doesn't even plans for those. I would be glad if he does little things to surprise me in return of what I always does, but he never. He used to buy my soft toys out of nowhere in the beginning of our relationship but as our relationship became longer and longer, things he get for me becomes lesser and lesser.

It's not that I expect him to buy me expensive gifts or being me to somewhere expensive to eat. Things like getting me panadol whenever I needed it without me telling him, or things like writing me a letter or card, things likes buying me chocolates or sweets I like to eat on a random day. I would gladly appreciate all those, but things doesn't work that way.

I've been hiding all these for so long, and I just can't help it. I need a listening ear, I need someone to hear me talk but I've go no one to talk to.

Occupied

I've been so busy lately with my assignments and work that I've yet to have any time for myself.

I'm so stucked in my project that I don't know how I should continue with my work. To be honest, I was never good in programming and I never wanted to have this role in my project group. I kept quiet in the beginning because I knew nobody wanted it. But I gave in anyway. I told them I would give it a try, but I can't guarantee I can give a good work. I can do web programming, but I know no shit about Xcode. Ever since school started, I would worry about my programming every single night before I sleep. Sometimes, I just broke down literally because I just can't do it.

I've been feeling so stressed up. Even though I had a assistant programmer to help me with my programming but he does nothing for me. All he wants to do is everything in his own way.

I wish I could finish everything quickly and never to fall into this path again.

Been so long

Done with my internship long ago, and school has already started for me. I can't seem to get over that my two months holidays just gone past just like that. Still reminiscening the four/five days I spent in bkk with bby, Hui Min and Ryan. Drinking back in the hotel room after a long day shopping and having really good thai food.

My final year project is in the midst of the first term and I can barely breathe anymore. It's been such a tiring four weeks, as I was packed with lots of birthday celebrations and work. Talking about birthday celebrations, I just celebrated Aerilyn's 21st last Saturday at Mayfair condo and headed to prawn fishing with bby and the boys. Lady luck was on me, and I caught 5-7 prawns continuously in the half hour time they were left with.

Had a mini celebration with bby's family at a little Peranakan buffet restaurant the next day. There wasn't quite a lot of choices but I had a really nice dinner with bby's family.

Had classes on a mundane monday morning, had so much trouble waking up early nowadays. My cheque finally went into my bank and I decided to head back home quickly after school to get my credit card which I forgot to brought it along to surprise the little boy with his belated present. Secretly went to get an iPad mini for him, bought a box, some 'wormy' decorations and a wrapping baby which I decided to wrap 3 peppero as a prank to the boy. Coincidentally it is 11/11 today, so I just had to buy peppero for bby!

Classes starts at 8 tomorrow, I shall head to bed soon. xx

The silly smile of yours when you saw the present I got for you still lingers in my head. Everything was all worth it just to see that little smile of yours. :-)

Thoughts of the Encounter yesterday

It's been long since I wrote my daily lives on this online diary. Decided to jot something down here today because of what happened last night when I was heading home because I thought that it seem pretty dramatic and movie-like that I couldn't believe it would happened to myself either anyway. It's a long story, so I would just copy and paste the whole story I wrote on Facebook last night.

Met a pervert in train today. This Pinoy fat uncle came up the train at Clementi. He was holding his phone and he looked really weird because when I turned to look at his phone, he used his phone cover to cover the screen, not letting me to look at what he was doing to his phone. He was really weird so I was observing him from the corner of my eyes.

He took up his phone again and I turned to look at his phone. Again he covered his phone, not letting me to see what he was doing with his phone. He was becoming more suspicious, but I try not to believe it because he look so innocent. I thought I saw him putting his phone into his pocket from the corner of my eyes with his right hand. (I was standing on his left btw)

I was standing quite a distance from my boyfriend because a guy was in the middle of us, so we didn't talk to whole journey. The fat pervert came closely as the journey goes by. I thought he was going to grab my ass so my hands were ready to slap him and I was ready to shout at him. But he didn't so I thought it was just my stupid thoughts.

Upon reaching Jurong East station, I turn to look at his hands and I was so shock that his phone was on his left hand. And when I saw it, the fat pervert immediately kept it away. I turned to my bf and said, "b, the fat guy like taking my upskirt" in Chinese. Immediately, the Pinoy guy quickly turn to the door. Everything happened so quickly after that. My boyfriend wanted to pull him but I said it might be my mistake and pull him back.

When the door opens at JE station, the Pinoy guy was the first to ran out and my bf immediately pull me away and chase after him. The pervert ran even faster when my boyfriend shouted, Eh stop!

I lost them as there were so many people. But when I was walking down the stair, I heard my boyfriend shouting.

And indeed he admitted he videoed my upskirt!!! Furthermore, he's married with a child!! He was shaking like crazy when my boyfriend caught him. We let him go eventually though.

Girls wear skirt and dresses should always be aware of their back. If it's not for my boyfriend, that guy would have gone back home and wank to my butt. Urgh gross.

Still, thanks to my boyfriend for the brave and heroic act.  

Isn't it crazy? I couldn't believe it actually happened on myself. I had a really strong instinct that he might do something to me, but I try not to believe it because I always thought about stupid and dramatic stuff. Never to realize, it actually happened to me. Reason why we didn't report him to the police because we saw that he has a few pictures of a child, and thought that he must have a family of his own. And also, he seem pretty poor thing because he was literally shaking so crazily. His family would have falls apart if he were to be reported to the police. I know others may think that we should actually report him to the police. I know that he might be sentenced to jail for a few weeks or months, but that's not the main point. He would be sent back to his country and never allowed to step a foot in Singapore anymore.

Yes, I know this kind of pervert/weirdo/sicko should be sentence to jail. But... I don't know. After I got home, I did feel a little regretful of not reporting him to the police. Anyway, I just hope he doesn't do it again afterall he has a family of his own. If I were his wife/daughter, I would have gone crazy when I found out my husband/dad is arrested for taking another lady's upskirt.

Anyway, I really want to thank my boyfriend for what he had did for me. I was so afraid for him that I might made a mistake and made him embarrassed for misunderstanding the innocent. So lucky that he didn't did something crazy like beating the shit of the guy. Instead, he just shouts at him as he denies everything initially. I can't be anymore thankful to have him.

Bby if you're reading this, I just want to tell you that I was really glad that you did all these for me and I felt so guilty for always being such a bad girlfriend. :-( Thank you so much, not only for the brave and heroic act but for everything you have done for me. I love you bb. :-*

Broke

Been pretty much the same throughout my internship period, really busy with my work and basically I spend a lot of my time now with my boyfriend and family. Some interesting highlights to sum up my last week.

Thursday (4/7/2013)

Some random food I took while having lunch during one of the days I was working.

And this was the application that I was working on for about a month or so! Was pretty satisfied with it since it was the first time I am using mobile jquery to code something out and my managers are pretty satisfied with the work as well!

Also, Thursday was actually my intern company's second year. We actually celebrated the second birthday at a nearby karaoke on Wednesday though!

Friday (5/7/2013)

Bby and I went Jems on Friday since it's been long since we had a date together. Couldn't decide what to have for dinner so we settled at Yoshinoya for dinner! Ordered at the self-order kiosk and our order came faster than some that went over to the cashier!!

I received my pay that day and of course I was already planning to splurge on clothes! I went H&M and Topshop first but I was really disappoint because there were so many things I wanted to buy when I was broke and when I came back with lotsa money there weren't anything that I was interested in.

I was really disappointed, because I only got two sleeping shorts. Both were at $5 each and I had to get them because they were so cute and my sleeping shorts at home are already tearing apart everywhere.

We walked the whole mall and I still couldn't get anything and baby decided to allow me to buy something I've always wanted 237612739624 years ago!!

Yesssss! Victoria's Secret bag! I have been eyeing on their bags for almost forever and I couldn't buy anything that day at Jems and decided to get it anyway!! I just have to spend my money when I get my pay! But anyway, this is the bag I got!

I thought it was big enough to stuff all my rubbish inside and the design was really sleek like any other branded bags and I just had to get it!! I've never been so girly to buy a hand bag and this was kind of like my first. The lady there also gave me a free gift which was a bombshell forever perfume!! Fell in love with it immediately when I smell it! And I'm already prepared to spend my next month's pay on Victoria's Secret again!

Saturday (6/7/2013)

Spent my Saturday at bf's place napping and watching movies! Had dinner at JP together with his friends and I got Gigi a new bed! Finally she has a legit-looking bed! It was really big for her but I swear it was darn' comfortable!!

Sunday (7/7/2013)

Bf and I went over to Jems again because we had nothing to do after his lake run! Went Mark's and Spencer's and I found this really nice designed tin can that I just had to stop and take a picture of it!

Also finally bought my blusher! Bought a liquid/creme blusher this time round because I find the tube really cute and it was in the color that I was looking for! Went home and tried it on my fat cheeks to find it really pleasant looking. I've also used it when I go work and it really last for quite long!! So glad I bought this!

Tuesday (9/7/2013)

Boyfriend and I went over to Jems again! I didn't even realised I've been patronizing that area for 3 times in just a few days and I'm going there again this Friday!!

I wasn't feeling quite well Tuesday so I skipped a day of work. Rested till late afternoon before I decided to go wash up and head to Jems again! Actually, we didn't visit Jems intentionally this time round but because my bf was heading to Topshop for interview! Didn't walk around this time round because we've already been here for days and decided to just chill at Starbucks!

I tried their new drink, something like White Mocha Pudding or something like that. Taste pretty much the same as Java chips or white mocha frappé but they adding in milk pudding. I still prefer the one without pudding! I bought caesar salad wrap from one of the salad shops in Jems, I think it's called SaladShop? I can't remember, but Jems only has one salad shop if I'm not wrong!

Headed over to Jems since we had nothing to do and we bought quite a few stuff! I bought a top from Miyoc and when we were about to leave Jcube, I saw this shop which I thought were selling candles but they were selling some skin care products. The lady lead us in introducing tons of products and basically both of us spent over $200 over worth of products from the shop.

They were having some promotion, the second products will be 50% off and this lady introduced this Orogold 24K Gold Peeling Gel to me and I literally fell in love with it after she tried it on my skin. I was literally dumbfounded when she told me the price was $180, but she gave us 50% for this and I was so glad!!

I also paid an extra $15 to purchase this cleansing gel! I also tried on their cleansing gel and I was really amazed by it. The gel is really gentle to the skin and after using this cleansing gel and my Orogold 24K, I've seen slight improvement of my skin! Really, and I am not even joking because I've really obvious pores on my nose but my skin on my nose has improved tremendously!!

The lady also gave us a big block of soap bar free each and it smells so nice!! I haven't tried using this, but I shall tried when it when I got home tonight!!

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It's only day 5 since my pay has been issued to me and I've already finished them!! I've spent so much money recently and it's time to really save up some savings to our mini getaway with bby's friends!

Anyway, I was watching some XHIT's working out video and it somehow inspired me to start working out soon! Heard a few of my friends telling me that NAPFA is compulsory for girls already, so I better start working out! My stamina has dropped tremendously as I wasn't hardworking enough to work out in my poly life. I used to have light abs, but now it's just a flat stomach with some tummy bulging out. Urgh, I've been so irritated by it but I'm never motivated to work out! Speaking out it, I've also order some detox tea for bby and I. I wanted to start my work out only when my tea arrived, but I felt so motivated today, oh well. 

Can't wait to plan my work out schedule now!! 

Hello Kitty Rant // Last week

Recently there's this McD Hello Kitty craze around in Singapore. McD came out with a fairytale series of Hello Kitty and basically everyone went crazy about it. I wanted to get one too, but wherever I go to, it's just out of stock. It was so crazy that everyone who buy tons of boxes back home and then proceed to sell them at a very unreasonable price like $20 to $60. 

Last week was the week where the Limited Edition Singing Bone Hello Kitty was out and the crowd was literally going crazier than ever. A few of the statuses I saw on Macdonald's Singapore that I saw that made me really angry was these two.

Firstly, it was Sng Henry. I know Singing Bones HK is limited edition and it was also sold out island wide on the same day. However, you can't possible say ask everyone to pay more than $20 for a soft toy you bought for $4.60 or $10 right? The purpose of these Hello Kittys are for the poor genuine HK collectors or kids, but buying it for the sake of earning extra cash is totally bullshit. I really love Hello Kitty but I would never want to go to an extend to pay for a soft toy that isn't worth how much it is supposed to. I would rather go Sanrio to get better quality soft toy than spending my money to support the black market.

Secondly it was Wayne Wong. Is he freaking crazy or what to sell a soft toy which is originally $4.60/$10 at freaking $500? I know it isn't the highest amount others many have seen because I've seen the image of the HK sold at what hundred over thousand dollars? But this guy left his contact number in his status, and I just have to ss it and put him to the hall of shame. I would have done a collage for every of the black market sellers and defame them.

Thursday (27/6/2013)
Anyway, back-tracking some of my 'fun' days of last week, I met up with my poly girls. There were only Afeefah, Ivy, Shih Ean and I for that day, so we went Jems to have our dinner. Had a simple dinner at their food court and decided to walk around the shopping mall with the girls.

Saw this really cute elderly couple when we were going down. The husband was literally holding on to his wife afraid that she might fall whilst on the escalator. How sweet it is!! 

I also bought candles from Yankee Candle!! Didn't manage to take a look around the shop when I went there with my friends so this time round I asked the girls to accompany me into the shop and managed to bought 3 of their small 8-hrs candles before I buy the big 85-hr jar of candle after I get my pay! I bought 3 different fragrant. Bahama Breeze gives a really summer kind of smell, Midsummer's Night gives a really 'man-ly' fragrant and Honey Blossom has a really light floral smell. Still can't figure out which fragrant I want to buy for my 85-hr candle, everything smells so nice there!!

Saturday (29/6/2013)

Basically I spend my Saturday at Yoguru working! I felt so so soooooo happy to be back at Yoguru, it just feels like I'm back to my hometown after so long. I really enjoy being the yoghurt there, it just feel so 'me'. Anyway, I was working with the new manager that Saturday and I swear it was freaking busy that day. I worked from 4pm to 11pm and during that period of time, I've only sat down for like 15 minutes? It was super busy and we managed to hit our store target as well! Woohooooooo! Bad thing was I was almost dying when I'm on my way home. The new manager was cleaned the toppings fridge really slow and that's all she did. I swept and mopped the floor, washed all the spoons and containers, cleaned the machine, count the yoghurt and washed all the cloths and we finished these stuffs on the same time. That's how slow she was!

By the time I went home it was already 12 plus in the morning and I had to do the laundry and sweep and mop the house before I go sleep. But luckily, my bf was there to help me that night! :-))) Spent the later part my night as I play Blackshot and then lying on the bed whilst having our daily heart to heart talk. :-)

Sunday (30/6/2012)

Spent my Sunday over at my great grandma place with the little pup! 

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Wednesday would be my targeted deadline to complete my mobile jquery prototype, and hopefully I am able to solve all my problems tomorrow in the office. Anyway, look at the next photo! 

Did you anyone spot anything weird?! If not, look at the second picture!

I actually took this when I was on the way home from work and while I was looking out, the white floor mat immediately drew my attention!! Hahahhaa I literally burst out laughing when I saw it because who the hell who picnic at such a weird place! No view, no nothing, just bushes there!!

Shall try to update more and have more pictures so I could update my online space. Really hope to keep this online diary so I could read it in the future like how I would go back to read my old blog posts nowadays. Hehehe shall go catch some WGM or RM now!! xx

Boyfriend

Do I really treat my boyfriend really bad? Do I really spend a lot of his money? I've been thinking about it since the question was pop into my ask.fm. I felt a little offended in the beginning because this person said why I got myself a poor Malaysian boyfriend. Do you even know about love? No matter what his nationality is, whether he is rich or whether he is good looking, nothing can stop me from loving him. I love him for who he is and he love me for who I am.

To be honest, my boyfriend isn't poor. Just that he don't really like to spend money and he saves a lot. I was really mad that he's insulting and offending my boyfriend without even knowing the truth. 

He stated that I suck all my bf's money as well. I was so mad and sad when this person said this. Honestly speaking, I've asked my boyfriend about this. I asked him to tell me honestly whether I've been spending his money too much, but of course he denied. All I ever know is I've never liked spending my boyfriend's money. No matter if it's my EXs or whoever, I dislike lending money and spending the bf's money.

Whenever my boyfriend and I goes out on a date, I used my own money to buy clothes or necessities. Whenever we goes out to have our dinner, he pay his and I pay mine. And if I'm out of money, I will always remember how much I owe him and I'll always return the amount I owe. I've never like spending my boyfriend's money.

 I used to complain to my friends that I really hate how a couple can go to shopping or restaurants to eat and the guy always pay for the girl. I don't mind if it's once in a blue moon or what, but I've got friends that are like this and I really feel bad for the guy.

Lastly it was a point of me getting angry on little things such as me getting angry with him on everything and even if it's my wrong I would get angry with him. I really don't get it, are you the one in relationship with me? If you don't know what's happening in the relationship, then you shouldn't judge so quickly. I remembered I used to get angry really easily, yes but I'm already a changed person. I really swear upon my life. Whenever we quarrel, yes it gets really intense however, I would still apologize if I'm at wrong. We used to quarrel a lot in the beginning of our relationship, however after both of us are calmed, we would always apologize to one and other for what has happened.Whenever there is a quarrel in a relationship, both parties are always in wrong. That is why both parties MUST apologize. 

We're so much better now, so much less quarrels. We would quarrel maybe let's say one in a month or two. That's pretty okay right? If my boyfriend is unhappy with the relationship with me for being a person who spends too much money or getting angry, then he would have left me long ago in the beginning right? It's been 3 and a half years together with my boyfriend, and we loved one and another more as each day passed.

I can't think of how this anonymous can think that I'm such an evil girlfriend. There are so many things I did for my boyfriend that I just can't mention them in one day. I used to surprised him at the bottom of his house with a big flipboard that wrote how much he meant to me, I still remember it was raining that day and he was so touched that he cried so badly hahahaha. I did a few surprised videos for him, one with memo cards and two of it are me singing to him. How are all these evil, really?

I tried to forget what this anonymous person said, but it kept hanging in my mind and I felt really bad for my boyfriend. And I really think that this person is someone that hangs out with us quite often...